I was getting ready when I went to reach for the mascara. I made the instant decision that today I would not use the “good” mascara. I was not doing anything special today; it was just an ordinary workday. I saved the “good stuff” for the special days. I was momentarily stunned by the thoughts that were normally so quickly fleeting. Did I just say to myself that today is not worth looking and feeling my best? I paused as the implication of those words sunk in. A new understanding dawned on me as I contemplated, “How frequently do I tell myself this message in so many different ways?”
I thought of the pearl necklace that I thought was so beautiful, the one I had never worn in the 15 years I have owned it because I was “saving it for a special occasion.” Or the shirt that I fell in love with that is hanging in my closet with the tags still on it, never worn and no longer fitting. I never attended that “special event” it would be perfect for.
I recalled a story my friend shared after her mother passed away unexpectedly. She was cleaning out her mother’s closet only to find so many dresses, shirts and pajamas with the tags still on them. Items put off being worn until the perfect time, which never came.
The temporary joy that would have been gained by wearing these pretty, special items had never been realized.
The mascara dries up, the pearls break or get handed down to the next generation, the clothing that would have made us feel beautiful is given away, the good china never gets used. Life and some of its small pleasures chronically deferred for that elusive “someday.”
I realized that I have denied myself so many opportunities to enjoy and savor life’s blessings. I have carried around the mistaken belief that “someday” would be better than today, than this moment. I have lived my life as if it is a dress rehearsal waiting for the perfect day, the perfect time to put my best foot forward, to be or do my best.”
“Someday” I will follow my dreams.
Yet each day never measured up to my criteria of being special enough. The truth is that now is the perfect time—to wear the good mascara, the beautiful pearls, the perfect shirt, the fancy pajamas or to use the good china.
Today is worthy of our best in every way!
Ann Darwicki, RN is a Certified Professional Life Coach who completed her training at the Institute for Professional Excellence in Coaching. She is the owner and founder of Whole Being Coaching, specializing in coaching others to live the life of their dreams. Prior to becoming a life coach, Ann obtained as Associate’s Degree in Nursing from Delaware Technical and Community College. She has 25 years of nursing experience caring for women and children, with a lifelong affinity for holistic medicine. She is a Reiki practitioner and Nurse Luminary. She is also a freelance writer. She can be reached at 302-750-0574 or by email at firstname.lastname@example.org.