By Kimberly Braun
There is a sweet dance for me between the inspiration of what I have already discovered and immersion into the unknown.
We have all done it, had a sense of “what is” and “what could be” and from there, consciously or not, acted upon the two as complementary perspectives of reality instead of viewing them as contradictions. It is a recipe made in heaven, and I call this the science of being open to “The Diving Science of Possibilities.”
Let me give you an example from my own life, and may my lesson take you to some place in your own life where the same truth has played itself out.
In 2004 I was diagnosed with ovarian cysts. Fortunately, at the time, I had medical insurance and securing ultrasounds and surgery happened with just couple of phone calls. The surgery took place with ease and the cysts were removed. However, about a month later the symptoms reappeared, and I knew more cysts had come back. Another ultrasound confirmed this reality for me. In that moment, I recognized that the cysts were part of a pattern of “dis-ease” moving within my body, meaning they were simply the undesired manifestation of some unresolved issue within me. I also knew that pattern would most likely continue unless I got to the root of the problem.
As a Reiki Master—one dedicated to the healing power of prayer, loving the presence of angels and guides—I decided to take an esoteric route to releasing the issue behind the cysts. Each evening I dedicated sacred time to open to new possibilities through energy shifting. Choosing a comfortable spot in my house, where windows framed the night sky, I lit small candles in a large oval and I stepped, night after night, and lay directly on the floor. To begin, I invited all my friends, angels and guides to join me in the sacred space for the sole purpose of tending to this unwanted pattern in my energy body. I found my own comfort zone in the space around the body, anywhere from 3 inches to 1 foot away, and my hands moved to a suspended position over the cysts, never touching my physical being.
Immediately, the density of the air revealed toxicity. While my emotions were very neutral, deceiving me to believe I was in a place of peace, the colors and images slowly began to come forward spontaneously. In time, an image of me at four years old was fully present in the space between my body and hands. I sensed being in the wide open universe and then plunging through a window of defined space to that time in my life.
My little girl was so sweet and beautiful, and a big smile was upon her face. She was timid at first and carried a need to only show her joyful self, but soon realized she was so loved and held that all of who she was, happy and sad, angry and exuberant, could coexist. As she sensed the safety to be her whole self, her face changed to anguish. Yes, the moment allowed me to be in two places at the same time, to occupy the summer of 2004 and the year of 1971. Both real.
With hands steadily suspended over the cysts, they seemed to exude anger at one point. Little Kimberly began stomping in a childlike manner, and the statement “It’s not fair, its not fair” came forward. The emotion was in response to something quite influential in the life of someone so new on the planet, the loss of a very close relative and the near loss of another close relative.
By this time, I realized the cysts were an energetic holding of this emotion and my entire attention focused on allowing myself, my true Self, to express it as long as needed and in whatever way it came forward.
At some point, I cannot even recall when or how, all that had been held at bay was expressed. The soul and body breathed a free joy and the air around this part of my physical body was light. In that moment the cysts dissolved of their own accord, the pattern underlying them no longer existed, and the cells no longer had the compulsion to create “dis-ease.”
Even though there was an inner knowing, I still booked an ultrasound. Yes, yes! It was clear. Traditional science converged with “what could be” to reveal my truth and my reality.
So I had the paradox of surrendering to the truth of what is “real” as it reveals itself and the surrendering to the truth of what “can be” in the co-creative call to step into the Divine Science of Possibilities. What a wonderful blessing!
Kimberly Braun, M.A., CSP, Minister, is a Catalyst, Activator and Guide. Her life’s devotion is to discover the mystic within us all. Leading meditation and retreats after 10 and a half years as a Carmelite Monastic Nun, she is also the creator of VIBRANCE! Natural Living Festival, taking place November 9th in downtown Sarasota, and devoted to building and celebrating the local holistic community. www.kimberlybraun.com.